It's dead
It's more dead than ever before. But I'm just letting it be. I'm not taking any actions to change anything.
Maybe I've become afraid of change.
It feels as though we have nothing else left to lose, and he's taking advantage of this fact to trash me down on the ground further.
Either totally oblivious, or totally not caring. Most probably it's the latter.
I feel like we're fighting a battle every time this happens. And every time I'm on the losing end because I'm the only one who bothers to make the effort to construct the relationship back together again. Once I make the effort, it automatically becomes a losing battle because I'm the only one thinking, and he'll just be sitting there fuming away while I try to get him to calm down by conceding to his accusations and demands.
It's like pushing a helpless dog into a corner and then kicking it in the ribs just because all the dog wants is your attention and affection.
Yes, I have become a dog. His bitch. Always at his beck and call, always obedient, a toe out of line and it's the whip. Wait at home by the door while he's out to wherever, happily jumping up and licking his face when he comes back. When he wants to play, all he has to do is to pick up the ball. When I want to play, it must depend on his mood, whether he is willing to pick up the ball or not.
I have become his bitch.
15 comments:
Still so much conflicts and character differences, no point wasting each other's time. Perhaps both of u are not suited for each other. Move on and live your own lives instead of torturing each other.
You asked for it,so don't complain.
You choose your life and path girl. Only YOU can change things. You go girl!!
wahahahah...serve you right! bitch!!
you deserve it. don't you?
Hi Gal, u know wat you should do and wat you can do. I have said a lot since months ago and i believe your other frens said the same too. So wat kind of life and r/s you wan from now on, its your call. You have all the rights to make a decision for your own life. Dun keep letting things drag u down in all the ways possible and it is happening now to you which is reali bad.
We all choose our own fate.
If you think the rewards from the relationship is worth suffering quietly in misery, then I guess its rewarding to you from where you are.
No one else can see it from your persepctive. We are all standing on the sidelines.
You ought to know that friends will support your decision either way.
Take care girl, don't care about those insensitive morons who commented. You know yourself best, you know how much you can take and you give your bestest shot at the relationship which is really admirable.
Still as your friend, we hope to see you smile and be truely happy one day. *hugs*
Ya ya....Very soon, both of you will be lovey dovey again.
Whatever your decision is, I will support you till the end! Ignore those comments made by cretins... *hugz hugz*
comments made by cretins n morons r pissed after giving much advise to her after all her crappings n yet she's still complaining abt the same thing...
it takes a bigger cretins n moron to call another 1..
pls do mind ur languages. need u be so rude ? did anyone called u names ?
u wanna side her u carry on but no need for name calling... that shows how much family upbringing u have n it reflects on thoese who brings u up. have a nice day n reflect on what i've said.
GG, uncle Fed, unmasked, feathers and Fie, thanks for all your comments and support; it's what gets me through my day with a big smile plastered on my face.
Anon: Nobody directly called you a cretin or a moron, you admitted to it by replying.
For rudeness, I do believe (and I know everyone will agree with me)(except for those who are duplicates of people such as yourself) that you are the LORD of RUDENESS, with a BIG fuck-you sign on top of your crown and a huge hole behind your throne for you to hide in should anyone has a bigger FUCK-YOU sign on top of THEIR crown.
For family upbringing, it's so obvious that everyone else has at least a magnitude of upbringing, (unlike you) because they had the courtesy of leaving their nicks (unlike you) and daring to tell me what they think straight to my face. Unlike you, who hide behind an anonymous nick, calling people names and has not much of a life to the extent of meddling with other people's life, finding fun in blasting people, and getting your panties up in a bunch just because the world doesn't work your way.
It DOES reflect on the people who have brought you up, so spare a thought for your parents, unless you don't have any, in which case you should just go hang yourself because you most probably drove them to their graves.
However, thank you for scolding the anonymous who called me names as well. Unless it is a duplicate of yourself, I am even more gratuitous for you scolding yourself. *snickers*
And thanks for the outlet on which to unleash my annoyances with after a long hard day of work with people very much like yourself.
Seriously? Stay here. Don't go anywhere. I need a target board.
take care of urself now jas.... remember how headstrong and fiercely independant you were in sec school? don't let that die....
you were always the roarin tigger rabbit.... don't shed the stripes now for something that might not be worth ur while...
I'll always be there for you even though we don't have much time to talk nowadays... love you
Su
ya! tiger with a fluffy tail! heh!
Jas, don't mind me, but I feel like I have to say this.
Men are men. There are certain traits that makes them different from who we are. We must learn to find someone who is similar, or fits us, but never to expect happily ever after.
I know you may feel like you are the only one trying to make this relationship work. Trust me, I've always had this feeling with Mel. Yet on the rare occasions whereby he opens up to me, I realised that he'd went through alot because of me too. (Like when I was jobless for sometime and flunked out, and we were in trouble financially and with each other's families)
No use dragging his name through the mud and letting people know how flawed he is. Mel used to be a sweetie until certain little things I did over the course of 5 years, changed him. Until one day he just did not love me anymore... I'm not saying your case is the exact same as mine but its eeriely similiar.
So I would say... Hang on until you can't hang on anymore. Then, you leave. I don't see the point of having to point accusing fingers at each other and let the whole relationship+friendship turn sour. Might as well let it go nicely.
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