This is madness


I am crushing my own heart with my own fingers. Driving myself to the brink. Smoking myself to death.

Oh god please end everything. Please end this monster within me called feelings and emotions. Please let me feel no pain when I touch a flame. Please let me feel no pain when I crush my own beating heart into a pulpy slimy mess.

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. I am not myself.

Please forgive me.